The Smoke Monster Got Me!

Smoke Monster By: [177] (http://flickr.com/photos/banky177/)
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So, yeah….I’ve quit smoking (kinda).

Monday, I did pretty good.  I only chewed one fingernail down to the bone.  I don’t like bone chips in my teeth, so I smoked two cigarettes that day to keep from gnawing any deeper.

Tuesday, I was in the office…bored outta my mind!  The thought of a cold smoke (a term my friends and I coined in high school) frequented my deliriously nervous state of mind.  I was able to fight off the nic fits by taking it out on a small piece of flavored rubber…other wise known as chewing gum.

Wednesday, I traveled for most of the day down to tornado land Tennessee.  You CANT smoke in the airports or on airplanes these days so I just tried to sleep as much as possible.  That night I stayed in a smelly hotel.  I asked for a non smoking room, but was *this-close* to lighting up to get rid of the stench.  Also, since I slept so much on the plane, I was up all night…and what else is there to do at 3AM besides smoke and surf the net?  I held out due to the sign that stated a $100 fine for smoking. 😀

Thursday, things started to get easier.  However I only worked for about 3 hours and then spent the rest of the day and night in a better smelling hotel room surfing the net.  Boredom has to be my worst enemy! Even though the Internet is huge, you can only distract yourself from the smoking urge for so long before smoking a cigarette or passing out from eye strain.  I passed out. 😀

Friday, again was mostly a travel day, but the urges and withdrawal side effects were less fierce.  I only growled at one fellow traveler as they bumped into me at the airport.

Saturday, however, was a different story.  We were spending the night at my Mom’s and I forgot my patches at home.  I got pulled over and spent all night drinking in a bar.  I just couldn’t overcome the urges.  I gave in.  The smoke monster got me.

Sunday, I still didn’t have my patches so I smoked one more pack.  Better than going nuts and committing a mass homicide, right?

Since Monday, I have been back into quitting mode again.  It is Tuesday afternoon and I have not had a smoke in the past day and a half.  Do you think I can make it through this weekend without lighting up?

12 Comments

  1. jen says:

    well done
    none for more than 24 hours
    u can do it

  2. Honeybell says:

    Good for you!! Don’t let the little relapses get you down. Before you know it you’ll go an entire day without even thinking about them!

  3. Brandon says:

    Quitting smoking is hard. I’ve gone back and forth for years, but I finally got to the point where I really wanted to quit. The last time i quit, I ended up getting a hypnosis CD, and I’m not sure if it was that or something else, but it seems to have stuck. I’ve been smoke free for over a year now. i have slipped a few times when going out to bars, but with a 1 year old, bar time is hard to come by, so I don’t let the relapses get to me. I do have to be careful, however, because that’s exactly how I slipped back into smoking before, but once you’ve quit for a while, it gets easier and easier.

  4. Momo Fali says:

    You can do it!! Do it for Ace!

  5. zoeyjane says:

    how about super duper stacking your weekend? so you basically have no time TO get bored and smoke or do any of your triggers, like drinking in a pub? you’re doing great, either way!

  6. OhCaptain says:

    I quit smoking 3 years ago. I tried the patches, the gums and other drugs. None of them worked for me. The only way I quit smoking was when I realized I never wanted to smoke again. I just really needed to want it bad.

    The others are right, don’t let the relapses bother you. But one thing you need to really watch out for is making the relapse excuse to easy. There is never a good reason for a relapse. If you find yourself relapsing a lot, it not really working. You have to never relapse again to quit. Each minute, hour, day I go without smoking is one more reason to never smoke again.

    I used a website called QuitPlan. It might just be a minnesota thing, but I found it REALLY helpful.

    Good luck!

  7. Stacey says:

    Yeah, you can do it! You’ve already got 1 1/2 days under your belt! Hang in there!

  8. Kim says:

    I hated quiting. HATED it. I am pretty much smoke free now. I get out of the house about once a month and only have about two cigs (normally I am drinking so it is just a habit).

    Good luck to you!! It is hard . It may get easier, but you never forget you were a smoker.. well I never have.

  9. Tara R. says:

    Good luck fighting the smoke monster. Stick it out, you will be better for it, even if it doesn’t feel that way just yet. You can do it!

  10. go go go gog!! you can do it! not that I know anything about it but i wanna be a good cheerleader!! I am sure you will never regret quitting!!

  11. You’re a better person than me – I’ve quit trying to quit!

  12. Johnny says:

    Congats on the attempts to quit. I used twizzlers to help me quit. I had plenty of packs of them around and when I got the urge to smoke I used a twizzler in its place… You should try that or the little cocktail stirrer straws.. They both help with the motion of smoking.. LOL

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